When I said I wanted to kill you
you just looked at me and said
'go ahead'
I never understood that,
just thought it was another one
of your insane ramblings
but I think now
you actually meant it
and was more sane at that moment
than you had been for, I don't know
10 years? 15?
In my memory
you look so sad
God, you must've been missing him so much
and having such a hard time
trying to cope
with all of us
and yourself
and I know you tried
but sometimes it just wasn't enough
just because you couldn't
it was a job for two
not for one
it was supposed to be two
I realized this
when we both were standing at his grave
the words say
'unforgettable'
I think I forgot
but you never did
you just snapped
